Kate – Have You Got Nothing to Say?

Maybe not. Or maybe I’m just trying to sort it all out.

I feel a profound sense of peace, sort of like the calm before the storm. Or the eye in the middle of a hurricane. Whatever metaphor works. Or simile?

For the first time in forever, I read the paper today and had no opinion. On anything. Could it be that I have nothing to say right now? I certainly don’t have anything to say about what’s going on in my personal life. But that may change tomorrow or the next day.

Or, as my dad says, maybe right damn now.

I will say this. The list of people who ought to leave me alone is getting longer. Why? Not sure. I’m not very good at cutting people out of my life, but I’m doing it anyway. Content to be with only friends and loved ones whom I enjoy and who enjoy being with me. I won’t travel down the street anymore for soul-dragging, miserable, neurotic creatures whose disdain for me is obvious, much less across the state or country. I love who I love. And the rest can go to hell.

And don’t get me started on people who are all wrapped up in how my life choices affect them and their world. I don’t care what you’ve got going on, I have to make decisions that are best for my family. You sure as hell aren’t putting my kids through school. Therefore I have to do it. So take all of your selfish concerns, insecurities, and deal with them on your own. I’ve got enough happening, I don’t need to hear your nonsense as well. Those boys come first. Most of my loved ones understand and support me. And the rest can kiss my black ass.

Wow. Aren’t you glad I don’t have anything to say?